How Are You?

- February 18, 2024

Hi There,

I know you told me to think again about whether to reach you or not

I know we left our relationship just like that

and the last conversation was so hurtful

I can’t take back what I said

nor regret it

But.. how are you though?

How are your days?

Do you eat and sleep well?

Do you wake up with a smile on your face?

Do you still weight lifting and build that muscles every morning?

Does the tattoo on your arm completely heal?

Do you feel satisfied with the design?

How is the weather now there?

Do you feel cold?

Does your heater work perfectly?

Do you still sleep with your mouth open and snore very loudly? Lol.

How is your work?

Do you still have a beef with that woman from the other company?

Do you finish your task amazingly like usual?

Have you applied for a new job or probably already moved to a new one?

Do you like your job?

Are you happy?

Do you laugh often like you used to?

Does your voice still sound the same?

Do your green eyes still look beautiful? with the brown freckle around the iris?

Do you still eat pickles and olives?

Do your parents still send you a bunch of cheese from your country?

Do you still boil your chicken and pasta with a bunch of salt?

Do you eat all-you-can-eat sushi outside often?

Do you find a place for eating ramen as delicious as Takumi?

Do you still watch John Wick for... I don’t know, maybe the tenth time?

Do you still play the Joker and John Wick soundtrack movie?

Who do you talk to?

Do you find someone new?

Can she make you smile?

Do you find her smart, confident, and funny?

Do you like her?

Do you think she is amazing?

Do you listen to her gossip and stories attentively?

Do you hug her with your warmest hug?

Do you think she could be the one for you?

Do you plan your travel somewhere warm with the beaches?

Do you plan to show off your workout body there?

Do you find your old swimming trunk somewhere in your wardrobe?

Do you buy some new clothes and are ready to charm everyone in town?

Do people still look at you while you are walking because you are so damn fine?

Do you still take Daisy for a walk around?

Do you plan to go back to your country to meet your parents?

Are they healthy?

Are they happy?

Are they finally at peace knowing the chances of you moving to my country are zero? lol.

Is your mom doing alright?

Does she go to her personal hairdresser and tailor again?

Does she cook Tres Leches for you?

Is your dad still bald? lol.

Does he still cry easily when he thinks about you or your sister getting married?

how is your sister by the way?

Is she still dancing?

Does she still eat less?

How do you find your life now?

Can you finally focus only on your goals?

Can you finally think only about yourself?

Are you at peace because no one pressing you to buy a ring again? lol

If you ever wonder,

I am doing fine in here.

Though, there is no day without thinking about you.

With or without people around, I still think about you.

When I just wake up, while I'm brushing my teeth, while I'm doing my skincare routine, while I'm at work, while I'm talking to someone, while I'm dancing with strangers and I remember your chicken dance, while I'm driving, while I'm eating something delicious and I hope I could share it with you, while I'm taking shower, when I booked a flight ticket, while I'm spending the day with someone new, when I finally kiss a new guy then I cried in the bathroom thinking that I want you so badly no matter how hard I tried to let go, while I'm getting drunk in parties and I remember how we almost didn't make it home just because we were so wasted, while I'm looking at the sky from the balcony and wondering if you see the same sky, when I saw someone was engaged or married and thinking this is not gonna happen for us, when I saw a happy family and knowing I should wake up from that daydream, when I look at the mirror and seeing just myself without you in my life. After all this time, all I could think was only you.