Day One

 It was a hurricane in my mind. A very big storm. Dark clouds. Destroying everything cannot be controlled.

I felt like a shipwreck in the ocean. No crew. Floating around. No direction, following wherever the stream goes.

Without any purpose. Without any destination. Waiting for the holes to be filled. Maybe it will sink eventually. 

Whatever. I don’t even care anymore. 

Strangely,

It was only when you held my hand that, all of a sudden, the storm was quiet.

It stopped spinning around and showing tantrums.

It wasn’t clear. But it was something. 

It wasn’t completely bright, but I could see a glimpse of sunshine peeking through the cloudy sky. 

“I like you.” You said. 

I didn’t answer. We both stayed in the car for the longest I could remember. 

You stroked your thumb over mine.

It was dark. 

We stayed still as the cars on the street passed by.

 

I couldn’t look you in the eye for long. 

It was calm, almost too quiet, that I started to question my mind.

Just like this? Is this the moment that I’ve been waiting for so long?

I didn’t know the answer. 

All I know, I like being in here with you.

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